Do you ever find yourself in a moment, where you're so completely and utterly grateful for everything your parents, specifically your Mother, ever did for you, all the tears she wiped, all the love she gave you? In our own ways, I think we all have these moments of gratitude. Lately, I've found myself treasuring these small tranquil moments, that have become more of a regular occurrence. Not only was I blessed to have a wonderful Mother,who loves me and gives of herself no matter the cost, but I was also blessed to have a Mother who taught me the definition of sacrifice and generosity. She has taught me so much over the years, and now that I'm an adult I've come to love, cherish and accept with gratitude all the lessons she's taught me. Folks, I know this is so cliche, but I have one of the world's greatest moms!
Living and working here at Shepherd's Field, I've been blessed with a great opportunity to work with and love some amazing kids. I tell my friends and family all the time, that there really is NO better feeling in the world than looking into the sparkling eyes of an orphan and getting to feel the warmth of their loving embrace- It's amazing! This season has been a time of learning and growth for me. Learning the importance of patience, hope, forgiveness, trust, sacrifice, gratitude, kindness, mercy, redemption, joy and above all, love. All of those "motherly qualities" that are so vital to our lives. Although not all of it has been charm and roses, it has been amazing to see how God has used these kids to teach me these critical lessons. I'm grateful for all that He has shown me through each one of them. Although I'm not a mother, one day I hope to be and I know that God has been using this time to prepare me mentally and physically, as well as, to prepare my heart. One of my favorite quotes is from Anne Lamott, she states, "There really are places in the heart you don't even know exist until you love a child."And honestly, I couldn't agree with her more. Since moving to China, I've felt more love grow in my heart than ever before; not only love for these children, but also my love for God and for my job. It's incredible - I didn't even know that was possible.
These last few weeks, I've been soaking up as much time with with the kids as possible, before I head home for Christmas, and I have to say - I feel like the "mom" part of me is growing. It's that desire and ability to love unconditionally and to feel the pain, frustrations and sorrows of these little ones that gets me digging deeper into who I'm meant to be and the woman I want to become.
I am truly blessed to be able to love these little ones- it's really my honor.
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